Hi guys, it’s been a little while since I did a ‘This Month‘. I mean, if three months constitutes a ‘while’. And that’s because things have been a little different. That should make writing these posts easier, but I’ve been confused by my own body/ symptoms and haven’t really known what to say. This month, I’d like to talk about health guilt.
Health guilt: the process of feeling guilty about your own bad health because other people have it much worse. This month I’ve been experiencing some health guilt of my own, but for myself. I don’t even know that’s a thing. I’ve been experiencing some different symptoms for the last couple of months. A lot of you will know by now that my menstrual cycle isn’t exactly my friend. But I’m feeling a little guilty for complaining about these symptoms because they’re not as intense as my others.
I haven’t had my menstrual sickness for about three months. That happens sometimes. I go through phases of getting it constantly then I get a couple of months off. But that’s the symptom that typically hits me the hardest, so a couple of months without it is a big relief.
Recently, they’ve been heavier than usual, more clots, more pain. I’ve been exhausted. And the ‘brain fog’ I’ve been experiencing has been interesting. There’s nothing quite like trying to work then suddenly forgetting everything you wanted to say or losing the ability to construct a coherent sentence. None of this is a walk in the park. But I feel bad for feeling bad when it isn’t as bad as what I’m used to.
So, as I haven’t been sick, I’ve been eating. A lot. Of everything. I usually only crave starchy stuff but this month I was all about the sugar. I don’t know if that’s because I’d just reintroduced it and that was my body’s way of reacting, but I couldn’t get enough. In fact, I had Skittles for breakfast. Twice. Since then I’ve found these sugar free, vegan gummy bears*. They’re not as sweet as regular sweets, but they still taste pretty good and when I was in the ‘bottomless pit’ pit’ mindset, they would have come in handy.
I also discovered this new flavour of lentil chips, which are delicious. I’m already a big fan of lentil chips but I usually go for chilli and lemon*. These ones taste a lot like mango chutney and I’m here for it.
So, we’ve already established that I was exhausted, temporarily illiterate and frustrated with myself which makes for an all-round incredibly productive person. I wish. This month I found myself doing the utter minimum I could, doing my emails and work I’d already arranged and not an awful lot more.
Netflix was my best friend for a few days, Now TV for a couple more. So please imagine how great it was when my laptop suddenly stopped working. You may have seen my tweets about this. I turned my laptop on, had done my emails for the morning and was about to settle down to some Desperate Housewives and Skittles when I noticed my laptop decided it could no longer play sound. I thought a quick troubleshoot would fix this. However it took several restarts, a restore to a previous date, during which it crashed, and an eventual restore to factory settings to fix it. After 8 hours, a mini breakdown and several searches for laptop deals online, fearing the worst, my brain was fried and my stomach was empty.
All I wanted to do was watch Desperate Housewives.
It’s been about a week and everything has been fine since, but as I work from home from the aforementioned laptop, it was a stress I didn’t need.
Let me know, have you ever experienced health guilt? Had any computer issues that ruined your day? And most importantly, who’s your favourite Desperate Housewife? I’m pretty sure I’m half Bree, half Gaby. And I’m not mad about it.
Until next time,
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